My Addiction Poem by Justina Nicole Haner

The sweetest, best addiction ever is you
I think of you as a daily dose of happiness
My only ray of sunshine, my rainbow in the sky

You’re the only reason I know of to live
Deep down in my heart it’s telling me you like me
My soul don’t want to detach from my body

Doesn’t that mean something to you? It should
I can’t die because my love for you is keeping me here
In retrospect that’s not bad but it’s very torturous to me

Honestly why should I have to see somebody who won’t love me
Seeing you is painful, kind of like a stab in the heart
Please just help me end the pain, set me free of this torture

Help me be where I need to be: in the ground
I was a mistake to my family anyways so I’m not loved
My tears are rivers when I cry for you sweetheart

No matter how hard I try I’ll never be happy
Never have I been happy because I was never loved
I guess I don’t deserve it right? I’m undeserving