My Courtney, All Gone. Poem by Jodie Louise Pollock

And as the tight air closes in around me,
I remember a time when you were My Courtney,
I think back over all of our past,
Memories drowning my eyes so fast,
And so while i lie there in complete silence,
Its obvious your touch has left its presence,

I no longer cry in the middle of the night,
I no longer hold my teddies far too tight,
I no longer starve myself day after day,
I no longer hide what i have to say,

But i do however still crave need,
I do still need water for this seed,
I do still need your love and touch,
I cant do it by myself, its too much,

And so while i lie there in complete silence,
I think about your old presence,
I remember all the trust we shared, the hope,
As i lie there trying to think of how im now going to cope.