My Everything Poem by Ven Ven

I know you hated me
For leaving you behind.
But I only did it
Cause I felt you weren't already mine.

When I returned I thought I have forgotten
All my feelings for you inside
This heart of mine that realized
It's only you I dreamed to be by my side.

Even now I hated you the most,
Same goes for her whom you treasure most.
More that the love and caring you showed me
More than anything I imagined that you can give me.

But still I love you more.
A love I didn't imagine I will feel
For someone that I hated I swore
To kill this feelings or seal

I hated myself for leaving you
And now I regret every single day that I don't have you.
Before we swear that we'll be together
And promise that we'll stay forever.

But now all I felt was loneliness
Hoping you'll still choose me regarding the cruelness.
We both know that this is one of the challenges
Of this marriage we choose.

Really it is painful but I still manage to cope
For I was thinking of the moments we spend though happiness is all I hope.
So that we'll be able to return
From what we were before this mess begun.

Remember ven (heaven) that whatever happens,
This love for you will remain
I know that I will be lonely
So please just do what you think will make us happy.

If ever you choose her over me, just say so and I will hear.
But be fair enough my dear.
I'll accept anything.
Even if it takes away my everything (ven) .