My friend insecurities came to me today 1: 00Am in the morning when I was watching my favourite series.
And he made me think of simple little things that I can poorly do,
then made me think through,
'What will you do If, I stopped loving you? '
And then he made it sound worst, when he said the opposite of the words.
'What will I do if you disappear? '
'Will you still love me in days i can't hold my pen? ! '
You see, I'm heart perplexed girl that can only write what she feels,
And In days I can't hold my pen, I try to speak.
And in the process of me trying to speak...
My thoughts become very thrilled,
They rush from my mind straight to my mouth in the most chaotic manner like flames came from hell,
And sit on the tip of my teeth,
That only my lips can sit them free,
And leave me here...two meters behind you, Stumbling and stuttering to knock on your shoulder just to tell you... 'Hi....its....me..'
You see when I speak, I stress,
And when i stress my legs can't hold me,
So you might see me running through the hallway trying to describe how beautiful today's weather can be.
My friend insecurites loves me and scares about me,
He tells me how pretty and kind I can be, but I can't show this to the outer world,
Cause if I did, They'll use me and when they use me, I'll cry,
And when I cry he becomes sad and when he's sad, He's angry and when he's angry, He pushes me through a mirror and tells me how ugly I am and reminds of all the goals I couldn't reach.
My friend insecurites used to visit very often but he didn't show since you appeared,
But today he came...
And doubted me again,
'If you'll still love me knowing who I am, And who I cannot be? '
'Will you still love me after meeting my insecurites? ! .'