My Happy Place Would Scare You Poem by Axley Jade Blaze

I'm not just batshit crazy
I'm batshit insane
I'm batshit off the chain
I'm batshit get off on this pain
My chemicals destroy like acid rain

Put me on a leash
I do it for fun
Every moment I crave you
You're the only one

My happy place?
It would probably scare
Terrify and put fear in you
Rip and tear at you
That silk-stalking lust-screech in my ears,
I said it, I get it: I hear you!

Everybody wants to save me
But then they just enslave me
Put a collar on me
Try to train me
Then they all betray me, berate me
Whisper how they hate me
What is this fucking fate for me?

I want to give up on
This wretched thing we call love
What am I dreaming now?
What am I thinking of?

Violence from your soul
Shot right through my heart
Inject me with your crazy
Get me all hazy
I just want to stay, see
Get high from you, maybe
Be your crazy little baby
Sexy little lady

Why does it seem like
The irony in life is brutal?
What we intend
Is always the opposite of what we receive--?
What we really need
It makes me sick,
Nauseous, I dry-heave

When I think of what we were
And, what we became
How we both played the game
Both were the victims in our own brains
But, both were to blame, acted insane
It's ridiculous, it is a shame

(Both were insane,
It is a shame!)

So, now down this twisted path I go
Feel your wrath in this fucked up show
An empress taking the fatal blow
Right to the heart
Right to the cranium
Your kisses like radium
Your touch just like arsenic
As I scream, 'are you sick?
What's the matter with you? '
Get a God damned clue

(Get a God damned clue!)

And the ending it starts
Nobody prevails
Everybody fails
You hear my death-screech
And my little-girl wails

I just wanted peace, wanted love,
Wanted your affection
But your attention
Is deadly, that erection
More like an infection

In a heavenly hell
Never would be able to tell
I'm this messed up
And so are you

Now I hear the curtain call
We are through
And, God I love but hate you

(How I love but hate you!)

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