My Heart Poem by Tina Ozolins

Right now my heart is breaking
After it was yours for the taking
I loved you with all my soul
And you tared it into a thousand pieces like a shoeless soul
Before I could have time to mend
You said we could begin and end
Until we have begun and ended a thousand times
It feels like my heart has walked through endless mines
When I thought you were there
To hold my heart and soul with tender care
When all my thoughts seemed to go
You were always there to sow
Everything you had done to hurt me
You could never let me be
You ripped out my heart
And destroyed it with a million darts
And when you ripped and tared
It seemed like no-one really cared
To hold me through the toughest time
When I thought you did the worst crime
When I thought you had cheated
I thought you had beated
Me across the face with a still sharp knife
After saying I was soon to be your wife
I liked that question when you asked me
That I couldn’t be mad or stand still with glee
But then you wouldn’t speak
To me, I thought you needed time to peak
Through your mind, to see if your feelings were true
You were always there when I was feeling blue
But now you and Joey are friends no longer
And I thought I could conger
The love for Joey I do feel
But he could never steal
The love I have, true for you
There are just a couple of things I want you to do
When I thought about all the hurtness inside
I thought I could have surely died
I could’ve gone to hell
For treating you like something you could sell
My first wish I wish for us to do
Is to get to that special place where we say ‘I do’
The second one involves your dreams
It is for you to tell me until it pulls at your seams
The truth about your fantasies and which ones you want for real
The ones I want you to tell me how to go about to deal
With the wishes in your mind
I would ask you really kind
Until you love me honest real and right
When you have embedded in my sight
The look of you I will not judge
And my feelings for you will not budge
My love for you will always last
Even through my horrible past
When we had not you met
I knew my mind was made and set
The minute when we first said ‘hi’
I thought we would never say goodbye
But we did because you didn’t want to become
Between my friends and I, but I wish for you to come
Come to see me for my 17th birthday
It would mean the world for me if you would say
How you really feel towards
My body and soul, instead of being a coward
Instead of hiding the feelings you can not hide
From me I wish you were at my side
Until the day I give up and die
And with a great sigh
I realise I was wrong
And that we both did belong
Together til the end of time
Together we could make the perfect crime
Even if we don’t go on many dates
From the moment we met I was blind
From everything else, and I didn’t mind
You meant more to me, than anything else.