My Honest Truth Poem by Heatherlee Eldridge

I was born on August 25th
so that makes me a Virgo
I have no idea what that actually means
I am 5ʼ6"
I wear size 9 jeans
I'm terrible at making small talk
And Iʼm a sucker for a guy with a nice smile and fitted clothes.

I am often loud in places where I should be quiet and quiet in places where I should be loud.
I like coffee…
Iʼve been told that I give really bad hugs
People say it feels like Iʼm trying to escape
Itʼs probably because I am.
I have an odd fascination with things like sand castles and snowmen
I assume itʼs because I usually find myself dedicating time to things that will only last a few moments
I guess thatʼs why I fall in love with men who will never love me for long, to be honest I think it's safer that way.

You see relationships often remind me
that Iʼm not afraid of heights or falling,
but I am scared to death of everything thatʼs going to happen the very moment
I fall in love.
Iʼm clumsy
Yesterday I tripped over my self-esteem
Landed on my pride and it shattered like an iPhone with a broken face.
Now I canʼt even tell whoʼs trying to give me a compliment

Iʼve never been in the military but I have this purple heart
I got it from beating myself up over things I can't fix
Iʼm afraid if I let you see my skeletons
Youʼd grind my bones into powder and get high off my fault lines.

Hi, my name is Heather
I enjoy nothing, laughing for absolutely no reason at all and cry my fears to sleep.

I have solar power confidence
And a battery operated smile
My hobbies include:
Worrying about everything
Hiding in my room
And trying to convince my shadow
That Iʼm someone worth following

You see, I don't know much but I do know this: I feel deeply.