My Last Days Poem by Patrick Shields

I pretty much already knew what the outcome was going to be
Kevin would realize that he didn't mean what he said and he loved you
I tried to not think about it but I knew that you loved him more than me
Now I'm lost in my own dark despair and I don't know what to do

It seems that happiness will deny me any satisfaction in this dark life
Although there is one good thing about this I can now quietly fade away
It just really seems that my only soloution to this problem is to just to die
I haven't written my final note yet but I have planned my death today

I've served my purpose in keeping you happy and keeping you alive
But now its my turn to say goodbye to this disgusting and dark life
Now its my turn to not care and to be selfish at least until I finally die
I will overdose on random pills when everyone is asleep on Monday night

If there is anything that you would like to tell me than you must do so soon
Because Monday is only five days away from this dark cloudy grey day
So you better hurry up because I'm on a very dark path to my own doom
I just can't take it anymore and I know it'd be better if I could go away

You may try to talk me out of it but sorry to say that you will not prevail
Because my minds made up and there is nothing at all you can really say
That can or will keep me here I can already guarantee you that you'll fail
I'll even be surpirsied if I can even last my next last five very long days

But I will do it for you so you can tell me anything or just to say goodbye
I may be selfish but I can not be heartless towards my true love you
And I already apoligize if I break your heart or if this poem makes you cry
But like I aid in the beginning I don't know what else to really even do