My Life Poem by Saisha Meyer

my life is evil and will turn you upside down
grab you by the arms and toss you around
mess yours up and make you cry
give you the choice and the need to die

ive been through everything to much
i cant see what is happening but i know i have had enough
i have drowned in my tears and i am lost in all my pain
and so i just reach for my knife again for the millionth time

you can call me stupid or you can even call me mad
but it is all i do when im depressed or even sad
it cant hurt me cuz i like the feel of the metal and the steel
it makes me feel like im here and real

i just press the blade to my wrist and into my skin
and i suddenly feel the steel go in
i hate the way it makes me cry and how it makes me feel
but i never want the wond to heal

i hope that the cut will make everything all right
i dont want any more sad and lonely nights alone
i just wish that i could save myself
but it is hard cuz no one ever knows how they can help

i dont understand and wish that i did
i dont know how the steel always tends to find my hand
then possibly maybe i could find away
and make all my pain go away