My Way. Poem by Brittany Meyne

and if i could erase it all
i would have never of met you.......
my heart would have never of been broken
if i had it my way
you wouldnt have left me astray....
i dont understand i did everything for you......
and out of all the other gurls i would have never hurt you
i would have never abandoned you........
i didnt take you for granted....and when you looked in my eyes....all my pain all my fears......hun you made them dissappear......but now thats all i have....pain everyday...and fears that i wont be okay.
i could have never screwed you over the way you did me
and the sad part is that i still love you and always will
cause you touched a part of my heart that no one can EVER come close to
im slighty okay....not sure yet......
im trying to decide weather i should hate you forever or forgive you already and move on with my life.....which direction am i going.....who knows....since you happend im all turned backwards...
well its nice to know your doing fine
even though my checks are stained from where my tears have fallen
right now im pretending everythings okay......i dont know if i'm trying to fool everyone else or just myself
some how you have managed to get under my skin more than anyone ever did
please dont go...
come back just to tell me everythings going to be okay with out you.....
and whipe my tears away like you always did....
is it possible to let you go?
but everything happens for a reason i guess......
but it'll never be fair.....i cared for you...i cried over you..i picked up my shattered heart and put it back together....
and you never cared...
right now im pretending everythings okay....i dont know if im trything to fool everyone else or just myself......
and if i could erase it all i wouldnt.....
cause you touched a part of my heart no one can EVER come close to....
because im grateful that i did have you at one point in my life...
but if i had it my way
you would never have left me
if i had it my way......you'd be here by my side today...
and im whiping away my makeup smeared eyes
if i had it my way you'd cry over me the way i cried over you