Myself Alone Poem by Silent Death

I walk alone
wondering, questioning
where is my home
why am I here
whats wrong with me dear
I try to believe
I guess I'll just thieve
what went wrong there
that gave us that scare
whats wrong with me I ask
theres nothing wrong you say
but still I feel this way

I walk faster now
almost running deciding how
I can't tell you this
and it makes me sick
I'm lost and I'm gone
I'm too scared to belong
so I cry and I scream
and I try not to dream
I get lost in myself
knowing I need your help

I want to live and to breathe
but I feel like a theif
robbing you all
laughing as I watch you fall
I cry as I wake
realizing my mistake
I try to forget
but that hasn't happened yet

in the future I think
I'll be strong and not so weak
I'll stand tall
and help when you fall
I'll try harder next time
and maybe not lie
I'll hold my head high
and you won't see me cry
I will live each day
in a more normal way

no cuts, no blood
no more hate, just love
I'll do as I say
and then fall away
losing all over again
and this won't ever end