Never Known This Before Poem by Erwick Brandon

I've never known pain like this before.
I've never known loss like this before.
I've lost loved ones in death but even so, this seems far worse.
When you lose someone in death, most times there's some sort of acceptance.
Some sort of knowing that it's final.
You're not dead.
You're here.
And there's nothing I can do.
I have no closure and I cannot accept it.
You're so close yet just out of reach.
The only thing worse than not feeling your touch, is our hands barely being able to graze each others finger tips.
And then nothing.
Our eyes meet for only seconds at a time.
But those are moments I wouldn't trade for anything.
I've said this before, but it still holds true.
My greatest fear of all is losing you.
I dread the day you get over me.
I pray that day never comes.
I'm sitting here alone in my room, just thinking of all the things that we'll eventually do.
I cannot wait to call you mine.
To spend my life with you for all time.
Until then my heart aches for you.
It breaks because I'm not with you.
Please help me pick up the pieces.
Please me help me put my heart back together.
You're the only one who can.