New Meaning. Poem by Eman Awad

I was trying so hard lately,
struggling to find a new meaning.
I was lost and alone in a world,
and i get saved only by dreaming.
You came to me and i felt,
no change and nothing at all.
But slowly my resistance melt,
and i couldn't help the fall.
All of my defences went down,
and i couldn't fight for my heart.
For the first time i didn't frown,
for being weak, but all has a start.
Maybe i didn't fanticize,
my one to be like you.
But with that look in your eyes,
i know no one is like you.
I've been with my heart walking,
trying to be away from your love.
But the image of you smiling or talking,
makes our decision so tough.
And some thing in the back of my mind,
keeps on telling me there is some thing about you.
Fall for him and don't ever mind,
till i knew i wouldn't be able to live without you.
And i said that all of the feelings i felt,
maybe because i felt you truely in love.
And maybe all because i had a feeling of guilt,
but you are the one i think and dream of.
Constantly and constantly,
i reject and refuse to come and confess.
I searched within me,
and you are the only one i missed.
All i know is when you leave,
my heart gets dark and soar.
I have some thing to believe,
and some one to live for.
What one one could see,
i'm sure i touched and saw.
You are a silent reverie,
and a star that used to glow.
I'm too proud to lose and i can't lead you on,
but all i know is that i can't let go.
Maybe you are getting over me and moving on,
but i hold on to a memory i adored so.
Why do i feel like we share,
a dream of world of our own?
Why do i bother my self and care,
and i knew my heart isn't your home?
But a part of me prayes,
that it can be your home one day.
And fall for sure always,
and i know you won't walk away.
I fear to imagine hate,
inside of you for me or for what i did.
I can't leave it to faite,
not knowing what may happen in the end.
All i need to know,
is what's between you and me.
What is going to grow,
what will happen eventually? ?