No Longer -Me-, As Part Of -Us- Poem by Chantal Lammerts

One more time, I told you, one more time,
I couldn’t take it any longer, I had to run,
I loved you, and you made it seem like a crime,
I thought that I was your moon, and you were my sun,
But now I know, deep in my heart,
That It doesn’t fit, you and me, me and you,
So that is why I decide, that we have to be apart,
But you don’t know yet, don’t have a clue…

In this letter, written in the darkest ink I could find,
I write the words, the sentences that reach till deep in my soul,
And only part of me hopes that you won’t mind,
But the rest hopes you care, and maybe if we’d exchange of role,
You’ll see how I feel, what I think,
Maybe you’d understand, change, just for me?
No, you won’t solve this with a hug, kiss nor drink,
I need this to end, why can’t you see?

So now, on this pearly paper, I finally dare to speak my mind,
I’ll tell you what I have needed to say for a terribly long time,
I don’t want to stay with you, and I’m no longer afraid of what I’ll find,
When I open the door to my freedom, not afraid to fall when I climb,
I’m not afraid of leaving you, just afraid that I’ve sunk too deep to walk away,
This is goodbye, the final act of me as a part of us, it will all fade,
And as I’ve said all I wanted to say,
I walk away, without regret, destroying what we’ve made.