No Longer Mine Poem by Shawn Williams

Let it be known that I didn't let it go without putting up a fight

I refuse to just lose the love of my life

After crying - cursing myself with all my might

Days without you lead to such lonely nights

I agree to your terms even tho they hurt me

Limited conversations giving me the third degree

I'm not perfect, another chance I deserve

Wishing I could go back and take back all my words

The ones that ended it all - that created this downfall

I broke my own heart letting you go - now that's one hell of a curve ball

Like a boomerang coming back and slapping me in the face

I could search all over for you, but you could never be replaced

At least not to me since you mean so much

I long for the days that I can feel your touch

Is this what it feels like to truly lose it?

I'm trying so hard but how much longer can I do this?

How the hell do I keep pushing with a heart that's torn apart?

Made such a stupid decision, but yet I claim to be so smart

Look at me now - barely getting by

Damn it - how many days am I gonna cry?

I'm sick of everyone's questions all the what's and whys

That doesn't help my situation, it adds to the tears falling from my eyes

Maybe one day you'll stop responding altogether

I know for damn sure that won't make it any better

Tell me you hate me, tell me I don't stand a chance

Tell me that we'll never ever be in love again

Maybe then I can get it through my mind

Maybe then I'll truly realize that you're no longer mine