No Turning Back Poem by Leilei Shirley Wu

I thought I could forget about you if I leave this place but I
can't stop thinking about you wherever I go I feel the pain inside
What happens when my love to you and hate I can't withdraw collide?
I told myself not to be afraid and let you rest in peace in my mind

I thought I could change for you if i throw myself behind but I
can't stop wondering what it'd be like if I don't have to cry all night
What happened to the things you said about love me for who i am?
I told myself not to hate you and try to let no one else in my sight

I know there's no turning back
And I know things are worse than that
But how am I suppose to try
When I know you are not on my side?

I am now looking at the cover of this diary of mine
Thinking about the secrets and all the heart breaks that I kept inside
Things like how it feels when you turned your back at me after our fight
Will I ever have the chance to write about you loving me back and tight?

The pictures we painted back then
Are now tear down into pieces
You burned all my oxygen and
just leave me here knowing I can't

I know there is no turning back
And I know things are much worse than that
But how am I suppose to cry
when I know that it won't bring you back?