Not A Monster, Nor An Angel Poem by Dark Tree

I am not a monster, nor an angel
As I always said, I'm just a human
You expected a dream, saw just a thing
Maybe ordinary what I did, but for me was special every thing

I was done and was okay before you
You were the one made me awake
From my sweet dream where I was happy
I gotta now build my dream which was ruined again

I had emotions that were never enough for me
I had emotions that was too much for you
I put them in the box, I locked the box
You had the key, you had the box

I respect you did not open
But please throw it into the sea
It may help or not
To forget the dream I had

I thought and thought
What was the thing I did wrong
You may say some reasons
But by knowing, they're excuses

That's fine you did not felt what I felt
We had ego that stopped us
I did fight but it won again
It was strong, I was weak

How could I be slow
When the death runs behind me
Maybe now, maybe later
Does it matter, if you know
You'll lost the race in the final round

I want to lost
Not only the race but also myself
Forget is just a word on the paper
but a power in the life
I am trying and will try
Having this power
maybe later maybe now
I will learn to have it

Everytime when I have a problem
I tend to think, it's the hardest
I challenge and think I can handle what you sent
And you sent her to shoot me down
It was good and I was impressed
But I still challenge, until you sent the thanatos

Sent me yama, hades or azreal
You think they will win
But you don't know
when they win, I will win...

But for now, good bye to you
Who does care it was 12 days or 12 years
It was best and will be best
In this world that is a moment

When I see a flower, I don't pluck and kill it
Even if I know
It is different than others
It smeels heaven with magic colours

I will be sad cos I won't see the rose again
But I will be happy with the memory
And the rose will know it shines and will always shine
The subjects will change but the rose will be same