Not For You, Not This Time Poem by Paollete Sunced

Don’t know why I started to feel like this
I told to myself this will be just a fling
I swore to myself I wouldn’t cry
Not for you, not this time

I was doing Ok
I was alright with my feelings about you
I got in the friend zone
And hoped I’d never get out

But the moment you started to open your heart to me
Telling me secrets no one else knows
Talking about girls that you love
It felt wrong

This is when things happen
This is what I was afraid of
My heart is beating faster
I’m really sacred that you would go

I miss you already.
I know that you’re gonna leave
I can’t help seeing you in a different way
Even though when you don’t think of me.

I don’t know what to do…
Everything I do is think of you
As I never used to

I know I’m just a friend
I know I won’t get to be more than just a secret fan.
I’m not what you want
I don’t think I do know who you are.

The day I met you I knew you were something else
And I know I won’t forget you
I could never forget your smell
Your obsessions, your behave
The way I dream you seeing me in a different way
How I desperately wait your answers on msn.

You are not my obsession
You are not the only one
But I know you’d be better
‘cause you’re a friend of mine.

Good thing this isn’t over
Well, at least, not yet.
Maybe I’m thinking what I want
And it shouldn’t be that way.