Not Sure What To Do Poem by Megan Lutz

Everyday going through life
Aching for the satisfaction of the knife
But I know I can not use the blade
For everyone I know will come to fade

All I want is understanding
As it goes now a rocky landing
Happiness is what I need
Someone to care or show a good deed

My heart is sore with pain and grief
Everyone looks with disbelief
But if someone only knew
For all the traiterous hell I've been through

No knows who I really am
Is this what God has for me in his plan
Everything I know is defeat
All around just lies and deciet