Notes To The Forgotten child Poem by Katie Anon

You are the part of me I try and ignore
Always trying to lessen your presence
Wishing so hard that you could be gone
Taking all the hurt and sadness along
 
I knew why you were in so much pain
Understood the reasons behind
But honestly I didn't really care
I just didn't want you to be there
 
For in my mind you were part of the problem
And I believed if you were gone
I could become the person I wanted to be
Happy, confident, content me
 
I was told by those I trusted most
For acceptance a certain way I needed to be
And in my efforts to change I ignored your cries
Trying to please other people's eyes
 
Until you came out in bursts of emotion
The intensity being so great
Nothing seemed important in this hell
I just did anything to lessen your swell
 
I was so wrong in these beliefs
As you are an integral part of me
We were both hurt beyond ability to cope
I was lucky, I escaped into hope
 
I am sorry for not listening
But now I am trying to understand
I will listen for your sound
And maybe in me, some comfort can be found