Now Poem by Tara McNelly

I hate you because I love you so with a love that's real and lasting.
I'm left with that; the best and the worst of it.
In the quiet now, every laugh we shared, everything I thought was real
howls thru my hollow soul and in the echoes I hear "fool".
My heart screams out in agony.
Suffocating, I gasp but the air is empty.
There's a hole where you came and went where there once was a door I opened for you.
You did not pass through my life; you passed through me.
I am not okay.
It does not get better.
Someone else will not do; he isn't you.

(2012)