Once Again Poem by bob barci

Once again I'm back in town.
Once again I'll test myself.
I think I'll pass
but will take some doing.
I met some party people
I could really get into,
but their worlds are showing,
and I don't think I'm a part of it.
Somehow I just don't fit in again.
Party people seem so different when I'm around.
Can someone tell me why?
Is it them, is it me?
What am I doing wrong?
Once again an unwanted low in my mind.
Why do I feel like I want to cry out loud?
I can't afford to drown in tears again.
Can someone help me hold them back?
I don't want them to show.
Once again I'm back in town.
Once again I found my kids.
I think they can help.
I know they can.
Once again at the bar with party people.
Glasses helped to kill the pain.
I forgot about it for awhile.
But another let down brought the memory back.
What did I do to deserve this one?
Once again, I'll need the glass.