Once More And Release Poem by guillermo veloso

Is this the dream that dreamers dream of
Chasing the duende in blue-lipped flight
Death more merciful than life?
Mad-bladed thought scraping the hardened fields
Mad-starlings crazed with hunger settling in
Mad furrows random and scattered
Marred and disfigured rows
Not a coherent thought to grasp for
Not one light in the dark to reach for
Not one warm thought to nuzzle with
Is it a wonder then, that
I seek release
Silent release, once and for all
An end to struggle
What do they want of me?
What is needed of me that is not needed of them
This world is beauty
This world is ugly
This world demands much
I have been left unrecognizable and
I have tired of the dawn's tease
I long for one last sunset
On last quiet moment in the perfume of gardenias
One last moment with the trees
One last moment with the birds
One last deep breath, then
Release