One Drunk Child Poem by mav ylai

I have been drinking
since I was 5
Yet I only started getting
drunk after I turned older than 9.
I can't seem to decipher what difference did that drink made
during that date, of why after it,
everything began to look hazy
and fleeting in motion,
like a dizzying state.

Could it be that I was too young for the beverage I had drunk?
As far as I could recall it used to not have limitations yet here I am now dazed and nauseous.
Each day just feels like the former, yearning for something warm, and warmer. I have been drunk due to life since before eleven, and never sobered since then.