One Or Three? Poem by Kathryn Garner

i think ive got to lose my self some more
to break from this addictive habit
prefering to leave myself torn
prefering to take my heart and stab it

ive just signed my own death wish
to please another of the pairs
giving away the one thing i miss
and i really do hope that either of them dare

i think im sinking deep inside myself
pull me out my lover
i do need some help
think im sinking deep inside myself
sleeping in this cover
i do need some help

but then again, whats there to say
when there could be three or only one
the only single for another day
a final day till im done

think im giving away all my heart
then i took the knife and tore it apart
its better to fall on my own will
then to lead lovers
... hand in hand....
to the final kill

yes lovers i say for i give it up
let them take eachother to console
as for the time, bother to interupt
i truley dont care, ill love my role
in the stupid play ill play the victim
and they can be what was meant to be
while the defeated may never win
let them have eachother instead of me

and for me
i will just lay here
i really do like it here
it feels like waht i hoped was so near
and i do like it here
where i thought some good could come
but once i wake
i know its all done
i went and signed my death sentence
a sign of guilt and horrid repentence

and as i
sink inside myself
pull me out, lover
i need your help
and as i
sink inside myself
save me, my lover
i need some help
and as i
sink inside myself
kiss me, dear lover
i need you help
and as i
die inside myself
i lost my lover
but i need his help
and as i
as i die