One Thing Can Change Everything Poem by Nela Turcanová

I came over, you checked my scars
after that you left me alone
staring at the stars
sometimes im wondering if i should pass but i cant when i remember my past
i feel like i dont need it
alcohol pills and that all
i just wish i could be happy enough to let it fall
maybe if i was better you wouldnt always left me suffer by myself
At this point i cant even read your mind
Do you find me pretty like i find rain or the way you used to look in my eyes?
Or do you find me anoying like the tears in my eyes whenever we are trying to understand if this will last?