One To Many Poem by Amber Mull

ONE TO MANY LIES
ONE TO MANY AFFAIRS
APARENLTY I MESSED UP
BUT THEN AGAIN WHO CARES?
YOU FINALY SAID THOSE 5 LITTLE WORDS
'IM NO LONGER YOUR FRIEND'..
SO BASICLY YOU GAVE UP ON ME
EVEN THOUGH YOU PROMISED YOU'D BE THERE TILL THE END
THAT YOU DIDNT WANNA FAIL ME
YET HERE I AM CRYING AND SCREAMING TO AIR
YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL
HOW MUCH IVE BEEN THROUGH IT IS A BIG DEAL
I GREW UP CRYING EVERYNIGHT
BARLEY ONE FRIEND IN SIGHT
TEASED 24/7 WETHER DAY OR NIGHT
BEAT UP FOR THE HECK OF IT
AND I WOULD NEVER WIN THE FIGHT
FILLED WITH SCARS AND BRUISES I CAN NEVER ERASE
TO TOP IT OFF I LOST IT YOUNG
WAS TORN APART PHYSICALLY
IT HAPPENED ENOUGH TO IMMUNE ME TO NOT CARE
I'M HURT I'M LOST
IT SEEMS LIKE NO ONES THERE
SO THEN I GOT THIS HABBIT
THIS DIRTY SHAMEFUL HABBIT
I HATE MYSELF MORE THEN YOU DO
ITS HURTS ME MORE THEN YOU HURT
ITS BAD ENOUGH IM SELF CONCIOUS TOO
WITH THIS ON TOP ITS DISTRUCTIVE
I DON'T KNOW WHY I KEEP GOING BACK
IT EATS ME UP
MABY ITS BECAUSE IM UGLY AND FAT
BECAUSE NO ONE REALLY LOVES ME
MABY ONE DAY YOU'LL UNDERSTAND
YOU'LL COME ON BACK AND KEEP HOLDING MY HAND
YOU SAID YOU WOULD'NT FAIL ME
YET HERE I AM NOW
I SHOULD HAVE KEEPT IT A SECRET
NOT HURT ANYONE ELSE BUTME! ! !
LET IT KILL ME ON THE INSIDE
AND CHAIN ME FROM GOING FREE
I SHOULDNT HAVE OPENED UP
AND SPILLED IT ALL ON A SHOPPING SPREE
THEN MABY YOUD STILL BE MY FRIEND
THEN MABY YOU WOULDNT HURT LIKE ME
YOU DONT UNDERSTAND HOW HARD IT IS
YOU CANT GET YOUR MIND AROUND IT
I HAVE GOTTEN BETTER WETHER YOU BELIVE ME
I HAVE MADE AN EFFORT
IT TOOK ME A WHILE TO GET RID OF THE LAST ONE
YET IF I TOLD YOU., YOU WOULD'NT BELEIVE ME
SO WHATS THE USE OF TRYING
IF YOUR NOT GOING TO BE MY FRIEND
I TOLD YOU I DON'T THIS THREAT
ITS MADE IT WORSE ITS CAUSED MORE PAIN
ITS BECAUSE I CARE I DON'T RUN AWAY
CAUSE I CARE I TRY IN THIS WAY
CAUSE I CARE I DONT GO OUT EVERY NIGHT
CAUSE I CARE I ATTEMPT TO FIGHT
CAUSE I CARE I DONT WANNA LOOSE YOU AS A FRIEND
YOU MAY NOT SEE IT BECAUSE OF THIS VOID
BUT BOI HERES A NEWS FLASH
ITS NEVER GOING TO END
ILL ALWAYS HAVE THESE SCARS AND STRUGLES
AND THE MORE I'M LEFT WITHOUT A FRIEND
THE MORE I LONG FOR THESE MEN
SO DO YOURSELF A FAVOUR
EITHER GIVE UP AND PUT ME OUT OF YOUR LIFE
OR KEEP TRYING TO FIGHT
I DON'T WANT MABYS
OR ONLY IF YOU....
I WANT A YES OR NO
IT HURTS TWICE AS MUCH
I HOPE YOU SEE MY SPLURGE AND MAKE UP YOUR MIND
IM GOING TO TAKE A BREATHER
IM REALLY NEED TO UNWIND