Pages From 2009 Poem by Tigana Chileshe

I browse through the pages of 2009...
Each page filled with unceasing remorse..I Cnt finish this poem its two dishearting...
Each day like a death sentence pronounces itself in bold print.
Why did i live to experience such betray, me betraying the other the other betraying me.
Page 1-10 reminds me of my mental anguish,
page 10-20 shows me how painful it was to lose connection with the almight.
Page 21-25 informs me of the pain of loving a girl to much.long live the fool...Seems to be the theme of that chapter.
page 26-30...How many heart breaks do i need to experience for me to learn my lesson..Love doesnt exist.
31-40..Lost opportunities, untrusting friends. Wasted resources.They all seem to stare me straight in the face.
How about those times i spent in the dark...Those moments i spent alone in the lab.The gossip the lusting the undenable hypocricy of my spirituality.
Its being a year that has nothing good in it.
Let it pass.Let it all pass.2o09.Pass.
I want a new book with a new title 2010.