Pain In My Heart Poem by Melynda Smith

As i laugh, as i have fun and hang out with them,
My heart breaks more and more.
These two were meant and created for each other im sure,
and it just so happened that i had accidentally
fallen
In
Love
With the both of them.
One i see everyday and it hurts everytime that i know i can't have no matter what happens.
Ever.
So now when im alone,
With only me, myself, and i to comfort alone,
I cry, cry for the fact that i have gone over the deep end,
I would never be able to taste his soft feminine lips,
Or wake up to a lovely face from his lover
Instead, i would most likely be the rebound if anything ever happened,
But i would never leave either of them.
Nothing would ever prevent me from trying to help them.
Not even Death.
Not even any laws.
Not even myself.
For these boys are the ones i will love, and no matter how much i try to move on,
Guaranteed, the men i would try to be with, just wouldn't be able to handle me or be able to meet my standards, which have been met.
By two different men.
My heart shatters and is thrown into a burning fire,
Everytime they kiss.
My heart becomes nothing, leaving behind a black hole, leaving me to only care about them and who have made it under my shell.
However, no one will be able to see behind my mask.
It is impenetratable.
My heart is done, it has been over-worked.
This is the pain of the heart,
The Pain in my Heart.