Per Severance-Preservation Poem by Kitty Marie Lucas

my disease returns, consumes my heart
i don't know what to feel
elation is just so misplaced
your bitterness is cruel

don't you know the day you left
was the day i died?
i was never quite the same
i never was a child

this emotionless stance is not pride
what should i feel? you're not mine.

such cancer will now kill me twice
but i still wait and wish for death
no one but i
can cut these strands
to free the patriarchal mess

i never thought i could be
as cold as i am now
but this is what preserves me
for i must trudge on somehow