Pieces Poem by Eric H

Shattered and broken
Words that are unspoken
I've given you something I can't replace
Now I can't bear to even see your face
Pieces are all that I am
Nobody's tried to glue me back to what resembles a man
Like a magnet I came together for you
You told me a lie that I thought was true
Now you're gone and I am alone
I still can't delete your texts from my phone
It's been a month and I can't see myself getting better
The pieces of me no longer have a shelter
It's dark and I can no longer see my way
I'm scared of what's to come because you wouldn't stay
My hope is lost because I'm in too many pieces
I'm fascinated with death in a way I cannot resist
You've taken so much of me that I can no longer go on
You live clueless to the pain you caused so now I'm just a song
I don't think I want to get better or to heal
That way I don't try again and let someone my heart steal
I'm afraid that if I find someone special beyond you ahead
I'll only have pieces too small to offer that she'll turn her head
I'm not complete and I'm not special
The things you stole from me I can only replace with artificial
They say it only gets better and of this I need to learn
But sometimes pain is just pain and all it does is burn
I see no lesson of this to comprehend
You became my love and now are not even my friend
I can't move past you and I cannot see life worth carrying on
I'm frozen in sadness and my happiness is gone
They say depression is a killer and sadness a thought for the weak
I'm living this reality and at times I can't even speak
I look back at where I've come from and how I've become the way I came to be
Destroyed and rejected, would it matter if you could truly see
The person that hurts is scared and longing for something real
I'm afraid that beyond this moment, true love I'll never feel
I steal a gaze into the moonless night
The memories that haunt me are a quiet fright
Happiest of times are what you've given me
But they've turned to nightmares that I can't seem to flee
The pain is unbearable and I can't stand to live my life
I'm hating myself more and more and now I look for a knife
To end this life and cease to go on
All that's left of me is sadness and I don't want to see a new dawn
Why would I want to heal so that I can try again
Only to get hurt and draw closer to my end
My cowardice keeps me alive day by day
Some day I'll find the courage to no longer stay
Thank you for showing me the truth
That my life sucks and it ended with you
Confidence is shattered and meaning is absent
I'm going to go now, my life ends in my apartment