Poetry Badly Expressed Poem by Zero Sept

Once again, you came back to give me hope,
But just as quickly, you rushed to leave.
I can't bring myself to accept your departure,
Yet faced with this reality where you're no longer here,
All I can do is resign myself to accept
This absence so devastating to me.
I worry for someone who's no longer there.

I can't stop myself from checking if you've written to me—
No message, no words… you leave me so empty.
No news, no conversation—where are you?
My mind is in such poor shape that
I want to fall back into seduction,
Just to kill the time, because you're gone.

Deep inside, I'm beginning to doubt you.
From the moment you returned, I was so afraid—
Afraid you'd lie to me, that you'd play with me.
It feels like you've already left again, but
This time, I can't even know why.
Your absence burns me—please, come back.

It feels like you drift farther every time,
And each time, the distance is stronger than before.
You talk about the future, but if we go on like this,
I'll soon abandon all hope.
A "us" was what we wanted, but don't leave—
I want you to stay so badly, yet you go,
And within a week, I'll give it all up.

I'm ready to let go of our future.
I know it will hurt you, but it's fate.
Let's give ourselves time to truly exist,
For we seem to live at each other's expense.
If we stay apart, perhaps we'll be happier.
What matters most is the other's happiness,
And so, I can only resign myself to a goodbye.

That doubt returns once again—you lie again,
You leave without saying a word.
Why do you want to keep building something,
If in the end, you'll always choose to walk away?
Over and over, our memories cut into me.
I had promised you that this time, I'd do everything.

I guess they were right after all.
And now, I think I need to stop.
I need to reflect—on myself, but even more on us.
I truly thought you'd find a way
To erase this doubt from my mind, but so be it.

I was ready to give everything, but you messed up.
I've lost trust in us, and even more in you.
I think this time, I'm ready to let go of "us" for good.
You've shown me we're not ready
To face these kinds of trials together.

My pride just took a hit,
And because of that, I don't think I'll come back.
An "eternal love" is nothing but nonsense—
Two people who can't live together,
That's the truth we refuse to admit.
We'll forget each other out of pride,
And I believe that moment has just arrived.

All I wanted was for you to talk to me,
But you chose to drift away again.
I'm sure it was the best decision for you,
And today, more than ever,
Don't come back to me.
I have no hope left for us.