Preplexed Poem by Poet Of Perception

Where to start and where to end
is the question with which I begin
have lived an eternity in this state
yet have nothing more to offer
than asking for more time to contemplate

When I cried the tears of sorrow
disowning any bright tomorrow
I asked for a single smile
when I smiled, for all the happiness in the world
my thoughts with some forthcoming gloom were riddled

When I had a pain a plenty
and unburdening it would have been a novelty
I asked for a single moment of peace
when I found peace like a sage
which could stay, till I broke life's bondage
I wasted it in finding petty pain
and true respect of peace, I could never gain

When I had hunger a lot
and finding a morsel seemed a lost cause
I asked for money enough to satisfy needs
when I had enough, to fill thousand coffers
I starved and became a miser
because my greed had only that much to offer

When I was lonely in the world
with love being an unknown word
I asked for a heart that beat for me
when I had many, such in my gallery
I broke and burned them, as if
they were slaves accustomed to my slavery

When my life had twists and turns
I suffered many burns
and asked for a little mundane run
when my life was in order
and adventure had taken to some extreme border
I mumbled and cursed on the life that was going as it must

Where to start, and where to end
is the question, and the answer with which I end
have lived an eternity in this state
yet have nothing more to offer
than asking for some more time to contemplate