Pretending It's Not Real Poem by susan brealey

A shooting star flew by
And you quickly came to mind
You're exactly what I wanted
You're what my thoughts would find

Our friendship flashed before me
And a smile I found on my face
I loved each and every moment
Of your sweet enchanting grace

I was memorized so much
By the words that you would speak
I couldn't seem to help
That I'd always grow so weak

At first I liked our friendship
How we could trust each other
How our friendship grew so strong
With one another

I'm not sure when it started
But i began to fall for you
I couldn't stop my feelings
There was nothing I could do

But soon my feelings grew stronger
And you're all I thought about
My heart was beating only for you
And in that there was no doubt

I tried to get over it
Knowing it would never be
Knowing I was just playing with my feelings
Thinking you would fall for me

I didn't tell anyone
Not even my best friends
Didn't want to risk our friendship
Didn't want it to end

I couldn't control it
I yearned for you so much
Didn't want anything else
Except your gentle touch

I kept my mouth shut
Trying to deny it to myself
Pretending I didn't have those feelings
Lying to myself

This love is starting to hurt
Pretending it's not real
Trying to put it in the past
Refusing to reveal