Promise Poem by Chevelle Behar

I made you a promise…
A promise I would move on, that I would not worry over you
I told you I wouldn’t, that I couldn’t,
And then it happened, and now I am forced to do so,
So I am not dwelling on you,
Not getting depressed and resting my thoughts on the thought of you,
Just pulling myself togather enough to move on.
My heart, it hurts, it is broken, torn, and shattered
Torn apart by you leaving me, but no one could control it
You didn’t see it coming, didn’t know
Till it hit, with the people you love being the last things running through your mind
You silently saying your goodbyes, and wishing them well,
So I sit in the dark at night and greive,
Cry and let it out
Wishing it had never happened but knowing there is nothing I could have done
So I beg my tired heart
The lifeless lump inside my chest one last favor,
To put itself back together enough
For me to move on, for me to find another
To possibly love again
But it does not want to
It hurts its tired, it doesn’t want to move on, it wants to stop
Wants to quit, but I beg it to find enough strength
To sew itself back together, to move on….
So it is trying, all the while asking me why, and I beg it to continue,
Reasuring it that it will be ok
It is weary but does what I ask,
So slowly I am learning to accept your gone
Starting to let you go, and say goodbye
It is hard and I miss you
Crying everyday….but slowly starting to smile at the meamory of you
Being happy that I got to know you……
So I send my best, and I wish you well, I love you, always will.