The sky is light yet I stand in the night
Tired, so tired
The darkness enfolds me, no light holds me
Sinking, the pit sucks at me
There is no bottom
Quicksand, stuck in quicksand
It's inside me, it doesn't abide me
Pain, it hurts
It comes in spurts
Rips at my soul, devours my heart
From the black I'll never be apart
Hate me, despise me
I'll never realize me
Lost in the pit
Just can't grab it
Help me, I'm drowning
Don't need help, need a bullet
There is no hope, I'm a goner
There's no one there, I'm a loner
Exquisite pain falls like rain
The darkness is the only constant
It's my only friend
It never ends, it goes on forever
It drags me to the land of wherever
It draws me nearer to the end
The knots in my stomach never unbend
Nothing but pain, my heart is torn
I wish that I had never been born
Tears run down in raging rivers
Hate those tears, my heart's in quivers
Stop it now, give me a bullet
Can't take anymore
Where do I turn
To stop the burn?
Get it out of me, get it away
I don't know what else to say
There is no one to help, no one to save
Black tracks on my soul are deeply paved
Alone and it hurts, agony so deep
Sanity I simply cannot keep
Need someone, someone so near
Need my wife, my only dear
It tears me apart, destroys my soul
I simply cannot play at this role
F**k it now, please let it end
To hell will it ever my soul send
To this do my thoughts now turn
Once again does my soul so burn
The pain in my heart does seethe
Please end it now while I still breathe
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