Random Thoughts Poem by Aliyah Houston

I wonder if you meant anything you said
I wonder if it was love when layed next to me in bed
I wonder how you'll feel if I was just dead
I wonder if you'll know this is about you if read
I always wondered why you'd lie
I always had suspicion
maybe it was my ambition
that kept it together
maybe you don't know the definition of forever
or maybe you just said stuff to make me feel better
or maybe you do care
or just can't bare, to watch me cry
if that's the case I wonder why everything went the way it did
maybe you don't know what love means
or maybe you just wanted to start clean
but I'm not going to think too hard
that'll just bring back all the memories I've been trying to discard