Rape Poem by Amri Miller

It's dark, it's cold
I feel his heavy breathing on my back
I can't breathe, I am suffocating
I want it to stop…please god make it stop

I'm being torn to pieces
There is nothing I can do, nothing
My mind's a blank, my body violated
Is this real?


It stops, I lie on the ground
Move your legs, get up
I struggle home, tears running down my face
Blood and fluids running down my legs

I lost my innocence, I am no more
I let the water run over my body
It washes the evidence away
Traces of him and me disappear down the drain

I try to sleep, I can't
I sob, I cry, I want to rewind the clock
I'm alone, I'm ashamed
I deserve this, I know it

Days go by, years go by
I keep my secret…it's mine alone
I am alone in that place of my mind
I never share myself and truly connect

Then twenty years go by
I connect with a man, a dangerous man
It's new, It's exciting
He promises me the moon and stars

I open up, I tell him my secret
He pretends to care; he tells me no man will hurt me again
I believe him, I trust him
I feel better sharing my secret

My mind has been opened
Maybe this is love
No…he rapes me, emotionally rapes me

My body and soul, both raped
Nothing hurts like this