Realization Poem by Kevin Carney

Could I have missed it all?
Standing back in time, pondering it all.
Did I not see the crack in that door?
In a precious moment, there for the taking…
To win your heart and soul…
Only to be so unsure…
To reach out and grab that moment.
In that early nights mist…
Still…I don’t know whether I would be right or wrong.
We sat there talking, till the early morn’s sunrise.
I shared my inner most secrets…
I told you what my heart felt…
Never had I’d ever been that honest.
I wanted you to know…
What you mean to me…
Fearing it would frighten you away…
What a chance in a lifetime.
For you to see me as I am.
It was all that I dreamt…
Never could I tell…
The look in your eyes…
Flickering and waning.
In the reflection of that dim light.
Almost I thought…
Maybe it was just, pure hope.
I know I touched you in all that I said…
Then a moment of regret…
A tear in your eye…
Rolling slowly down your cheek.
Thinking now it was lost forever…
Knowing at this point I was too late…
Seeing your face, trying not to hurt…
So clearly it was written on your face.
Even though you were trying to mask it.
Your realization…
I was not what you really wanted.