Really Not Okay.. Poem by Allysyn Bryant

I've enjoyed the rain
But I need the sun
I never expected this pain
To come when ever I run
Thinking that with time
My cheeks will dry from my tears
Hope you're all right on your own
No longer do I know what to do from here

Cuz I'm really not okay
Even when I smile all day
I feel like I've lost my way
Here stuck in second place

Again my goal is outta reach
Walking with Chattering Teeth
The Midnight rain falls on me
Can't tell them from my tears
Because I bottle up my fears
Don't know how to express them
So I hide them away
and there they stay

Cuz I'm really not okay
No matter what I might say
Maybe I'm just having a bad day
Can't seem to stay in one place
Some think I'm just running
Too scared to face Reality
But that's not exactly true

Don't tell me your here to stay
I'll just say to go away
I've watched too many walk out my life
I can't stand another fight
It's hurts too much
For me to say this
But I really can't take this

Cuz I'm really not okay
There's nothing more to say
I'm really not okay

I'm just not okay.

February 16,2009