Regret Poem by carly bachor

my tears gush out rapidly without a sound.
the tears dripping off my chin.
splashing to the ground, soaking the floor.
blinding my sight.
head banging headach.
heart thumping like a drum set playing heavy metal.
so dissapointed in myself.
so very angry at myself.
why couldn't i behave? !
i even knew i'd get in trouble.
so why the hell did i do it? !
now that i've done my INCREDIBLY stupid thing....im seperated from him...
jealous of those 'perfect' people that always get there ways...
when is it my turn?
when is it my turn to be happy? !
now im choking on my own tears...
now suffocating on my regret.
so much anger held inside.
so much to say to him but no way to say it.
litterally, why do i have to be so in love with this kid? !
waiting for another chance
waiting for nothing in other words i guess...
there is no doubt in my mind i'll never find another so perfect as him!
i wish i'd die.
just some way.
there must be a way.
take a breath and choke half way in the middle of it.
i guess i'll never win.
my head hangs down in dissapointment.
i will NEVER forgive myself.
this world is so confusing.
just take me out already.
im ready.
c'mon i dare you.
1,2,3,4,5 go.