carly bachor

This deep internal rage burns through my veins.
my internal torture eats me alive.
these thoughts put me in an instant haze of pain.
my dignity has been murdered in an on-slaught war.
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Hollow inside
nothing to live for.
a time bomb ready to explode inside me.
my nerves shot.
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you had me at hello.

you took the breath straight out of my lungs.
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where did the light go?
and when did the darkness take over? !
everything's out of place!
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you took a needle & thread
and stitched up my wounded, battered heart.

you stayed.
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your voice leaves me breathless.
your words leave me into a mini heart attack!

everytime you tell me you love me,
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you said i hope you die.
i said i hope you live.

you said get lost.
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-LOVE; an overused lie.
feelings to one's true soulmate.

-HATE; an overused, dramatic way to say i REALLY don't like you.
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All of these tears reinact my fears, even after all these years.
Just 1 tear streams, to silent the screams.
All i needed was some love, but all you did was shove.
I just wanted to know you cared, i didn't want to be shared.
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tell me if you care
love me if you dare

please if you fear
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I have no clue if im right or wrong
so i guess i'll just follow along.

my choices.
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Sitting here waiting,
as im suddenly fading.

The music to your voice.
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nobody beleived i'd do it.
nobody beleived, but i knew it.

my back is turned on you.
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Hiding the pain
Starting to think i'm not longer sane
I've lost my innocence
Now to realize this makes no sense.
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Though distance keeps us apart,
i'm always by your side.

i found your love crystal clear.
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These tears i cry
And all the questions why
i want to be left alone
but thats inmpossibe with my feelings shown
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i love you.
oh yes, it's true.

even if you rip my heart open
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Deep inside my own hate.
Deep inside my own disgrace.
that feirce taste of regret.
that feirce fear of not knowing who to trust.
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This fatal reality
This strong hostility
Wishing my wrists were bleeding
To stop the pain from the beatings.
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i can feel the sensation going through my veins.

50 thousand tears i've cried.
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