Regret For Something That Can'T Be Fixed Poem by Kim Jones

My life shows agony,
But only if you look hard enough,
My face betrays nothing,
But you will see a deep regret if my guard suddenly goes down,
I didn't believe it could end this way,
So I didn't even try, because I was expecting it to be effortless,
And now I live in the deepest of regret,
Only because I trusted,
I let my guard down,
I had hope,
And that's why,
I put up walls,
That's why I trust none,
And run away from hope,
Because I had to back off,
While regret prevented me from being happy,
I prevented myself from seeing,
The hurt and betrayal,
That came in such angelic form,
That I believed it came from Heaven,
And it's too late to change that now.