Repressed Desire Poem by James Dylan

Why is it that I appreciate a beautiful man
Sometimes more than a beautiful woman
Is it because man is a natural beauty
No need for makeup and creams
Can look good first thing in the morning
Wish I could say the same for woman
Every time I see a man
Blessed with crazy handsomeness
Why does it raise a smile across my face
Why does it take my admiration
Is it because I want to be him
Is it I want to be with him
Be he Black, White, Asian and all the rest
They all make me turn my head
Secretly he arouses me
Sometimes more than the female
Yet I could never imagine touching him
The thought of that repulses me
Yet I love to look at him
I appreciate his beauty
Sometimes more than a woman’s
Yet it is the woman I want to touch
He is a desire I shall never indulge
Though I have thought of it
Sometimes more than a woman