Sanity Poem by Kevin Carney

I didn’t mean to write it so sad.
It wasn’t really what I meant to do…
So complicated it is this verse…
It’s meant to free the soul.

If it wasn’t for you.
These feelings wouldn’t be told.
You have to realize what I meant.
The sadness your face shows…

So hard it is to write …
I just had to let it go.
You walked me to the edge of insanity.
Falling so deeply into the abyss.

I had been warned, you’re so full of complexities.
So warm, so cold, all at the same time.
You, yourself had questioned you own sanity.
You traveled through the darkness, you tip toed through the light.

I never understood how you could be two into one.
The chance I took, so confident I could handle it.
I embraced your challenge, thinking I could win.
Never could I believe that hate and love could run hand in hand.

You have to see, I came to you…
Seeing such a beauty, my eyes could never believe.
The side of ugliness should you so choose.
I started to believe that I was as warped as you.

Give me some gasoline; let me pour it all over.
Light the match and watch the flames.
It might as well be you and me…
It is such a damn shame…

I am blind to all we had; never do I want to see again.
So pent up the frustrations, of loosing to your insanity.
I was so full of it that we I could beat it.
I failed so miserably, forget the promises I made…

You know I could still have loved you….
Really though, you have no sanity.
You burn so bright, and then you go dark at a turn.
I don’t think that you can, hold on to your own reality.

You’re the broken doll, that can’t be fixed.
I’ve tried and tried, hoping you would meet me halfway.
I thought there was a time, when you could give yourself the chance.
Instead you chose the pills and booze to regain yourself.
I looked for the answer and hung in as long as I could.
In the end you, I thought you won out, getting what you wanted.
Now I question my sanity in writing this now.
Tears in my eyes, for today I stood over your grave.