Shadows Poem by Ben Huff

Shadows dancing on my wall
Was it me that put them their
Or am I losing it
I feel it disappearing
My last bit of sanity
Slipping away fast
But for me
It has always been that way
So how can you lose,
What you never had
Yet still the shadows
Circle round
While I prepare
For momentary death
And my heart stops beating
My lungs stop breathing
And my brain is finally quiet
To bad I’m not alive to enjoy
The sweet relief of my condition
That I share with the world
No matter how special we become
We’re all basically the same
The same needs to be met
We all gotta eat
We all gotta Sleep
And We all gotta Love
Love, such an essential need
Yet I feel I haven’t felt it
In what seems like decades
So willing do I give
And yet so forceful
Must I take
To get a grains worth
And breath a single sigh
Of brief happiness
If even just for
One small moment
And again the shadows return
Always formless
Taking any shape
Long as its dark
They come to fill the void
Left by love’s absence
Which I adore, and despise
For in the shadow
But the ones I care
For the most
With no escape in sight
Breath
Everywhere its seems
Is breaking dawn
Awake once more
For the laugh that
Is life
If nothing else
One of few ways
To cope with fear
Rejoice in the unknown
And celebrate deaths release
For you may know it
Many times in your life
You only know it
And all of its sweet glory
Only one time
And you won’t be there to enjoy it
Life’s second greatest joke
The biggest celebration of your life
The day everyone knows
You can’t attend
The greatest joke being
Never explaining
Telling you the purpose
Not even a single hint
As to the reason why
But that’s the way things are
If only to preserve balance
For why make the journey
If you are already
Where you want to go
My shadows know this though
And this is why they exist
Only thing I can do though
Is let them lead me
Home again
To the darkness
I call my home