Shame On Me Poem by susan brealey

I see you cry from being hurt
Turn away for things equivalent to dirt
I was never there to make you happy
Never once glanced to catch you laughing

Your days alone and being depressed
Blaming it on work is what I stressed
I never came back to you and shared your tears
I never was caring and soothed your fears

Life crashes down and you always ache
I was so irresponsible and called you my mistake
I was always trying to be someone else
Sitting in the corner talking to myself

I never realized the person I've become
Staring at this wall heart beating like a drum
I set everything in front of you and put you in the past
Everyone was first and you were always last

I've come to understand you are all thats left
Glancing over my mistakes tears rolling to my chest
My stomach is turning over my thoughts sinking in
Blood falling from my nose trickling down my skin

My eyes are swollen shut from this endless weeping sorrow
Knowing I was fake mouth so dry I cannot swallow
I picture in my head your smeared make-up and a frown
Your tears shed from my selfishness enough for someone to drown

I rest my head in my arm knowing it is the end
No one deserve to be broken stuck with nothing left to mend
So I clasp my hands together asking god for one thing
Is that the next man you meet treats you like a beautiful queen