Silent Tear Poem by Haley Martin

If you could chose a father, just what would you see
Its just that I dont know, please explore this concept with me
For I know I have to chose someone, for mine is no longer there
He hurt me silently as a child, he showed me he did not care

So here is a little 10 year old, just wandering what is a dad?
Just what is this concept, if not horror, fright and feeling sad
If I had a dad like you, I would not have these many tears
I would not sit alone at night, reliving nightmare, horror and fears

And if I fell over, and scrapped my knee today
Would you help me carefully, and wash my worries away
And what is a father, just what is that concept there
When I was raised with evil, with no one there to care

And when I am in your presence, should I feel scared and dismayed
Should I feel a racing heart, backwards and forwards, a little frayed
And if I was raised with evil, would I know that in my mind
Or would it just disappear, leaving me further and further behind

So would you sit and listen, as I told my story to you
I could not get out the words, my childhood was really bad too
But if I could chose a father, just who would that be
To replace the one that caused this horror, abused and molested me

So can we cross this wooden bridge, and can you promise to me
That it will not be repeated, because my soul cannot let it be
And can you promise for eternity, not only this life but next
That you will leave me alone, and not constantly hurt me

For you see this is what my daddy did, every opportunity he had
I was just so alone, having no one, feel safe and call a 'dad'
So if you want to help me, just sit here and hold my hand
And teach me what a good father does, teach me to understand.