Sink Or Swim Poem by Sylvia Kakegumick

Why must ocean's rage so violently?
I can either sink or swim

Still, Christmas doesn't feel like Christmas.

Three years ago everything changed.
Will it ever get easier?

I have been thinking about you non-stop for the past few days.
Thinking turning into sadness and loneliness,
when it's supposed to be the other way around.

Only I can turn things around.

I capsized and began sinking, it feels like i lost everything,
I tried to swim, but could not,
just laid there,
floating,
slowly sinking,
while watching all things beautiful,
drift by,
then disappear.

Christmas time is the month we have to face no matter what.
Stop facing it with blank eyes, pretending it doesn't exist
Only i can change how i face everything,
Only i can turn myself around,
face another way.

I know that swimming is hard work,
It asks you to put your ALL into it.

The time will slowly come,
I'll start noticing,
things that disappeared will slowly reappear,
all things beautiful won't drift by,
I will drift along with beauty.

I can swim by myself and I won't be alone.
Because I will be right beside all things beautiful.

Must start swimming.