Smiling With Grief. Poem by anthony fiji

A leaf with time will mold.
It's a shame black &white is your world.
You cant of your life take hold.
Everything you do or say is controlled.

Everything around you turning so fast.
But the speed of life makes you laugh.
You trying very hard to be complete but you still half.
You're screaming, no one can hear they all deaf.

You live carefuly scared to deceive.
You look at every smile with grief.
You feel in a world of monters you're so naive.
You can't accept the fact that your the best, you dont beleive.

Sometimes you feel like your performing on a stage.
Some other time you're convinced you're trapped in a cage.
You confused if what's inside you is fear or rage.
Maybe you should start all over just turn the page.

You can't hide in your eyes the sadness.
It's getting out of control in your head the madness.
You lost from your heart indeed the kidness.
Your only best friend sticking with you is loneliness.

You life is a big roller-coster, you better buckle.
Every minute for you it's a huge struggle.
You wish you had a woman beside u to cuddle.